Learn the hard way

07-25-2006
when feeling Melancholy

So I finally was forced to address my issue with dylan's mother and fiance.
since posting my immediate, raw reaction to his death, i largely did not review that expelled energy. i went to europe, then to atlanta and gathered my emotional self to address it when i was ready. unbeknownst to me, outsiders who prolly googled his name came upon my blog entry and then commented, creating a small memorial of sorts where friends and family shared their emotions. sadly, his mother, a woman i have never met and based on heresay only know as not being supportive of him and who had been arguing with him much in his last year, decided to attack his fiance through my blog for allegedly stealing from him and her. not only was this a totally inappropriate forum to discuss such private business, but i am then accused of libel from his fiance for allowing these personal attacks to go on. she sent me a note via the spymac note system and i totally freaked out and couldn't read it.

i could no longer ignore whe i saw again yesterday his mother posted more comments and accusations. so i have been forced to close my blog to all but mutual spymac friends until spymac can 'fix' the edit comments. not only can i NOT edit comments left by guests, but also spymac admins are unable to do such at this time.


in hindsight, i should've invisible inked it or realized, by default, spymac blogs have guest comments 'on' , but it never was supposed to be what it became.

peace is all i'm sure he wanted for those who cared about him.
i wish we could supply him with it.

i miss you.