Melancholia

03-26-2007
when feeling Melancholy while listening to Everyone Thinks He Looks Daft (The Wedding Present/George Best Plus)

James' Hello just adds to the melancholia this evening…

You and me
Play this song, the vision
Hope to make this love stretch forever
Don't let go in this now or never
Hope there's change enough to say...

Hello
It's over
Hello
It's over
Hello
It's over

Hello

You must say what you're thinking
I'm no mind reader of the stars
We won't get any older
It's so fleeting
I am lost when I'm torn from your heart

Hello
It's over
Hello
It's over
Hello
Hello

Somebody dreams a brave new world
I'm forbidden to breathe its pearl
Late summer evening
Late summer scene
Come together to make this dream

Hello
It's over
Hello
It's over
Hello
Hello
It's over

All but the sea
All but the sea

one of the other ingredients to this mood is Before Sunrise. i caught the last half of the film tonight, i keep missing it and still have yet to see ethan and julie's sequel. i hope to remedy that soon.

i saw Before Sunrise in the theater and i remember the night as perhaps the only time i met a girl who struck me as someone i really liked and wanted to know better but never got the chance. i typically have befriended mates first, then, they become a lover. but this moment was fleeting and it never became anything and i wished i had done something at that time.

anyway, i hate it when i become self conscious about films or songs, like when i feel i totally can identify with them. i hate it because it feels cheap and i feel like a sucker and i get all self conscious over how emotionally fragile i am at the time.

it's not like these two examples of pop culture are cheapening, rather, they are very beautiful and i enjoy them both very much.

regardless, i like the memory of love lost that never was. a reminder, perhaps, to act more assertively and swiftly.

>sigh< just get over myself already


i also named mixes after the Before Sunrise/Sunset films. one begat the other as a reciprocal tracklisting; same artists, meaner or entirely different track feeling. i made the first for a friend and the other for myself. the gifted one is a great mix and i'm quite fond of it:
Sunset - Kate Bush
Drift Away - Junkie XL
In Dreams - Roy Orbison
(Untitled) - Oasis
Help Us Out - The Futureheads
Blood - Editors
The Skin Of My Yellow Country Teeth - Clap Your Hands Say Yeah!
Untitled - Revenge
The A La Menthe - Nikkfurie
Maneater (Hall and Oates Meets Nelly Furtado Mix) - Nelly Furtado
Jump - Madonna
Everything is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack
Naked Eye - The Who
Severance (studio version) - Bauhaus
Beauty - Ladytron
Jed's Other Poem (Beautiful Ground) - Grandaddy
Good Days, Bad Days - Richard Butler
Sunrise - Pulp

response:
linka_sofia:

I should get back into making mix-tapes, or playlists, or whatever it is the kids are calling them these days. Up thru college I made some rather splendid ones, yes on *cassette* recorded from the then-newishfangled CDs.

I am a total sucker for popculture things that pull the right strings. And while I love to rock out as much as the next guy, to great tunes, anyone who ever dedicates me a song should probably be warned that I will then dissect the lyrical content for deeper meaning, even if it's just a kickass bootyshaker of a song with nothing particular to say. But then I am a word-ho, so whattaya want.

As for unrequited (or at least unexperienced) love, yeah it's all very touching and poignant and stuff. But I wanna get my claws on something I can sink my teeth into, if you know what I mean. None of that theoretical stuff cuts it for me anymore. But then perhaps I am just in a particularly pissy mood right at present.